This breakdown was a huge turning point in my life as it led me onto a deep, intensive healing journey. During this period, I read every self-help book I could get my hands on, took courses, went to conferences and energy centres. I went for counselling, did yoga, meditation, met with all kinds of healers, and did more radical things like past life regression and ayahuasca. I walked the Camino, climbed mountains, hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon... all in search of my own healing and happiness.
The good news is that I found it!
I'd spent the entire decade of my twenties seeking happiness in everything that society said would make me happy, but on my healing journey, I learned that self-worth, confidence, and happiness can't be found in someone or some "thing". No matter how much money you make, how many degrees you get, or who you marry, you can't be happy or maintain healthy relationships when you're operating on survival mode, buried under a thick layer of insecurities and defence mechanisms.
Maybe your story is totally different than mine. Perhaps your life was much harder or much easier. It doesn't matter. All that matters is that you take the time to heal whatever toxicity or trauma that's trapped inside of you and is causing you to attract toxic partners and relationships.
When I did this deep healing work, I discovered true happiness, self-worth, confidence, and freedom, from the inside out. And I am absolutely convinced that you can too!